now for the ultimate test. go to this website. set it to randomly generate ONE pokemon. all generations. all types. whatever it generates? thats you as a pokemon forever. what you get is what you get. NO RE ROLLING. now. who are you? i got goomy :^)
…alright, i can make this work
jackpot
Ok but I… legit actually kinda Id with tangella??? Wtf??? Might fuck around and revive my tanglesona
haven’t changed some of my doll’s outfits in over a year… i am realizing that perhaps my depression is not as treated as i thought…i’m deeply envious of people who just. wake up. every single fucking day. and like, don’t immediately feel dread about it. like waking up and being even indifferent to it is novel as a concept. i’ve been in therapy and seeing a doc for years to try and find the right meds but i guess i’s back to the drawing board… i’m so envious of people with energy to live.
Tip for those of you who don’t do their own faceups: if the sealant
chips, you can prevent it from breaking further by patching it with
brush on Liquitex sealant. Bear in mind it is not as matte as aerosol
sprays, but it’s better than losing a priced faceup to pealing and
flaking. Just add a dab where the scratch or lifting is, and it will
make it secure again!
This one started as a quick doodle for a tutorial demo on choosing colors, and evolved into this when I started mindlessly rendering it on the iPad.
If you want to know more about how I chose the colors for this, I made a detailed tutorial about it which is available thru my patreon! There’s also a process video showing how I rendered and finalized it. Find it here ~ https://patreon.com/loish
when yr adhd does the intense Anger thing n u gotta remind yr brain that u dont wanna throw yr phone full force at a wall
gentle reminder to myself and those it may concern that “obsess over it silently, completely frozen while you just fume for six hours” is also not a healthy solution
what do I do then?
in the words of one JJ Bittenbinder, throw yourself off your rhythm!
anxiety and anger are extremely persistent in ADHD because we fixate on that input and devote all our runtime to trying to “fix” it when in reality the only way to fix it is to leave it alone. considering we are diagnosed with Chronic Cannot Leave It Alone Disease, that is Difficult.
when you’re outside one of these loops, take inventory of all the things you do that suck you into devoting all your attention to them. when i was a kid, the way i avoided asthma attacks was i played video games while taking my meds, so i wouldn’t be fixating on the anxiety and making the asthma worse. nowadays, i avoid anger spirals by also playing video games (in my experience turn-based strategy is a hyperfocus superhighway so i use those) so i’m forced to divert resources to do this other thing.
joke’s on you, impotent fury, you can’t kidnap my brain if my brain is somewhere else entirely
STREET SMARTS
Me, at my brain trying to suck me into a spiral of self destructive rage:
